[Husk doesn't know that (yet) it's not a burden he carries just at this moment. But his response wouldn't be much different either way. He heaves out a sigh, reading Diarmuid's words, scraping a hand over his face. Fuck's sake, this kid will be the death of him. ]
Yeah. I'm getting that fucking impression. Reading that one loud and clear.
You never get tired of it? There's so much goddamn bullshit going on, you can't keep it up forever, right?
[There's... a short delay at that. Diarmuid did once hit a breaking point. It wasn't a moment he was proud of. He completely lost his composure when Waver went limp in his arms in the cabin last year. He wasn't a fool, he knew everyone had one.
He just...
He could never let it be seen again.]
But as long as I can hope and believe, I will. Even as I fall to the earth, I'll pull myself up from it again and again.
[At the very least... that's what he wanted. That was what a knight had to do. Though fallible, he must never lose that image. It was who he was. It was what let him exist. If he wasn't a Knight of Fianna, what was he?]
[That is not a healthy way of dealing with your shit, young man!!! ]
Fuck me, you're exhausting.
[The tenacity is so goddamn much. But isn't that what he's brought Lapis up to be? Not letting the bastards grind her down? Having Alastor appear to him has reminded him just how much can be taken away from a person. That sometimes, the bastards really can grind you down until you're dust. Nothing.
...And yet. The horrors persist, and so does he.]
Guess it ain't a terrible mentality to have. 'Specially in a place like this that's actively looking to fuck you over on a near monthly basis.
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Date: 2024-11-04 12:30 am (UTC)Yeah. I'm getting that fucking impression. Reading that one loud and clear.
You never get tired of it? There's so much goddamn bullshit going on, you can't keep it up forever, right?
[Even Charlie had breaking points. Even her. ]
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Date: 2024-11-04 02:02 am (UTC)He just...
He could never let it be seen again.]
But as long as I can hope and believe, I will. Even as I fall to the earth, I'll pull myself up from it again and again.
[At the very least... that's what he wanted. That was what a knight had to do. Though fallible, he must never lose that image. It was who he was. It was what let him exist. If he wasn't a Knight of Fianna, what was he?]
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Date: 2024-11-05 07:10 pm (UTC)Fuck me, you're exhausting.
[The tenacity is so goddamn much. But isn't that what he's brought Lapis up to be? Not letting the bastards grind her down? Having Alastor appear to him has reminded him just how much can be taken away from a person. That sometimes, the bastards really can grind you down until you're dust. Nothing.
...And yet. The horrors persist, and so does he.]
Guess it ain't a terrible mentality to have. 'Specially in a place like this that's actively looking to fuck you over on a near monthly basis.