shortly before midmonth. text; un: goldenrose

Date: 2024-10-21 06:44 pm (UTC)
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[Diarmuid gave this longer than he would've liked, but some individuals needed a more patient hand lest they lash out instead of listening. But it's been long enough.]

I heard what happened.

I won't ask if you're alright, I'm certain I know the answer to that already. I will ask this instead: What can I do to help you?

Date: 2024-10-23 04:07 pm (UTC)
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[Unfortunately, Diarmuid was not just sincere but also more stubborn than he would be under different circumstances.

Ones that made Husk bringing up a soul contract made his heart twist. Knowing that the only reason Diarmuid could even exist was due to a summons, a pact. A soul contract of his own. Knowing that the one who held it in Kaisou was a rarity among mages that would and has relinquished full authority. Is a partner over a Master.]


If only I were able to. I would if it meant you could feel a sense of relief. Or perhaps freedom.

I assume someone who once bound your soul was among those hallucinations I was told of.


[He's inviting Husk to speak about it, but not forcing. Much like their earliest conversation, Diarmuid is treading this water carefully. There's just more investment now. This isn't a stranger, a new member of the Black Order he wished to know more about. This was a friend who has suffered.]

Date: 2024-10-25 03:44 am (UTC)
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[How long must one's past sins follow them across lifetimes? Was looking over one's shoulder from the influence of another demon or the demon that a faction formerly was not penance enough? Though, in Diarmuid's eyes, he had a matter to atone for himself. One that he paid the ultimate price for.]

So you say, but have you not earned your freedom once before already?

[Diarmuid didn't know the full circumstance, but he would prefer to have a heart full of hope in potential goodness than scrutiny. He was not naive by any means, but it's that world wise nature that allowed him to hope more strongly.

His heart twisted again for Husk. In the familiar way that it did for "himself" as he existed on another branch. Knowing more than just they or other Servants were forced to have their souls in the hands of the worst of the worst.]


I see. And presumably the way you were treated under his contract was reflective of that. If not even worse.

[Again, he was treading carefully, all the while rage towards himself and a ship that was no more made anger start to rise in him.]

You have safety from him here, but you were forced to face the last person you ever wanted to. I'm sorry.

Date: 2024-10-25 10:08 pm (UTC)
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The same was said about the Black Order.

[Stated matter of factly, even over text. Not to dismiss, but because this was what Diarmuid truly believed. He was in Kaisou before there was an "out". He's just doing the same thing he did with Edward, applying logic where one's inner turmoil bellowed.

Still, the same ire he felt towards the Order was being felt towards Alastor. Even if Husk would say he didn't deserve it. Even if he was once an awful tyrant as bad as his soul contract owner.]


In your past life, maybe. But the life you lead now isn't the same as the one you led before. Even if many years ago in this life you made mistakes, you raised Lapis to be more than what the Order demanded of her. You loaned your strength against the Zealots and Unyielding for a better future. You listen and advise, even helped me find my footing when I felt my resolve threaten to shake.

I'll never forget that. The people you have helped will never forget that.

The Order that dared to use you as they did for Alastor's return no longer exists. And even if Alastor himself may, he has no right to your soul in this life.

You fought hard for your family's freedom. You deserve yours just as much as anyone else.


[And if by the strangest twist of fate someone within the Order attempted to facilitate Alastor's return again? Diarmuid will gladly remind them that his loyalty is, has been and always will be to Waver Velvet, not the Black Order.]
Edited Date: 2024-10-25 10:10 pm (UTC)

Date: 2024-11-02 03:55 am (UTC)
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You don't need to be renowned or even without sin to be someone's hero, or perform heroic and altruistic acts. The sin may follow, but acts of good are remembered.

[Diarmuid wasn't going to let up on this matter. Though he would concede that he didn't know the full situation with Alastor.

Would it stop him?

Absolutely not. It would encourage him to fight against that fate for his friend.]


The ship you were on opened an old wound that has reared its head before this. I realize that makes it harder to believe, even for a moment, that you will ever be free.

In that case.

I will believe for you. I will believe with all I am that you will be free. That you are free. That your life, Husk, will always belong to you and who you choose to share it with.

I won't be swayed. Even if he does "come to collect", then I promise you that my swords will stand against him in the fight for your soul.


[DIARMUID.]

Date: 2024-11-03 03:23 am (UTC)
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[Diarmuid has the power of god and anime on his side.

As for his response, it came with a delay. Husk was concerned for him, for anyone who would do the same as him in bringing Alastor down for Husk's sake. But there's more to Diarmuid's motivation that Husk did not know. And more to the nature of his existence, though the latter was easier for him to explain than the former. Considering he knew what he was... not who the other "Diarmuid" was or what he felt.

Still, though, he could speak for himself.]


Calling me mortal wouldn't be entirely accurate either. Though I can die, I'm not human. But I know that knowing that will not stop you from wishing you'd said less.

I am only able to exist by tethering myself, my very soul if you will, to a human that summoned Heroic Spirit Diarmuid ua Duibhne, into the modern era. Who you know me as is fortunate enough to have been summoned a person who is loyal, caring, humble and asked me when I came to this world if I wanted to renew our contract. Which I accepted.

But planes of reality exist where my Master was someone cruel, arrogant and selfish. A powerful man among his peer group who could in theory have forced me into anything. And as a Knight and a Servant I had no choice but to follow him.

I never want to see a dear friend be forced into a similar situation or believe he stands on the precipice of one.

Móralltach will sever that fate if it ever rears its head.

Your life is yours.

Date: 2024-11-03 09:15 pm (UTC)
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[It's a flavor of understanding neither of them would wish on another. And Diarmuid of Kaisou only knows of it essentially second hand. Until a few IC weeks from this conversation anyway, oops.

And the real answer to Husk's question is: Diarmuid has already died. Thrice, in fact. Once being left to succumb, twice for what he believed was right.

But Husk didn't need to know that. It was a burden to bear on his own.]


So I've been told. But by all means, let me be so obnoxious if it means I may look down a hopeful path. Even if those around me cannot. Especially if they cannot.

I don't mind being the man to so aggressively remind my loved ones that they are and deserve better than they might think.


[have you considered, mr. ua duibhne, taking your own fucking advice?]

Date: 2024-11-04 02:02 am (UTC)
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[There's... a short delay at that. Diarmuid did once hit a breaking point. It wasn't a moment he was proud of. He completely lost his composure when Waver went limp in his arms in the cabin last year. He wasn't a fool, he knew everyone had one.

He just...

He could never let it be seen again.]


But as long as I can hope and believe, I will. Even as I fall to the earth, I'll pull myself up from it again and again.

[At the very least... that's what he wanted. That was what a knight had to do. Though fallible, he must never lose that image. It was who he was. It was what let him exist. If he wasn't a Knight of Fianna, what was he?]