Black Order ain't one of the most powerful demons in Hell, kid. Much as they wanted to be.
[He has absolutely no hope of getting off Alastor's leash. The Order were nothing compared to the Radio Demon, in his eyes. They were awful, and they've made the last forty years of his life a living hell. He reads what Diarmuid has to say, but he can't find a lot of comfort in it. This life might be better - largely thanks to Lapis, but he never had much faith it would undo all the bad he's done in this life and the last.]
You're making me sound more heroic than I am. I didn't do it because it was the right thing to do, I was just protecting me and mine.
[Not really true, but it's a falsehood he's willing to believe. It's easier accepting the crap he's been though if he wholeheartedly believes he deserved it. That karma screwed him over, than his existence just being that shitty.]
I dunno. Alastor was a lifetime ago but on that ship? It was like no time had happened at all. Like it was just right back in that fucking life again. And that's the problem. People wake up all the time here, he don't NEED the Order to do it. One day it might just happen, and if he comes to collect?
Well. There's shit all any of us can do about that. Pretty fuckin' clear from the Order's files that his "right" to my soul carried over. The bastard owns me in this life, just as much as he did the last. He juat ain't awake to claim it yet.
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Date: 2024-10-27 06:01 pm (UTC)[He has absolutely no hope of getting off Alastor's leash. The Order were nothing compared to the Radio Demon, in his eyes. They were awful, and they've made the last forty years of his life a living hell. He reads what Diarmuid has to say, but he can't find a lot of comfort in it. This life might be better - largely thanks to Lapis, but he never had much faith it would undo all the bad he's done in this life and the last.]
You're making me sound more heroic than I am. I didn't do it because it was the right thing to do, I was just protecting me and mine.
[Not really true, but it's a falsehood he's willing to believe. It's easier accepting the crap he's been though if he wholeheartedly believes he deserved it. That karma screwed him over, than his existence just being that shitty.]
I dunno. Alastor was a lifetime ago but on that ship? It was like no time had happened at all. Like it was just right back in that fucking life again. And that's the problem. People wake up all the time here, he don't NEED the Order to do it. One day it might just happen, and if he comes to collect?
Well. There's shit all any of us can do about that. Pretty fuckin' clear from the Order's files that his "right" to my soul carried over. The bastard owns me in this life, just as much as he did the last. He juat ain't awake to claim it yet.